Too many thoughts, stories, emotions arose that it overwhelmed me. I struggled to breathe, to come back to present, but it was so difficult, so very hard.
I felt the pain of betrayal, of rejection, of abandonment, of alone-ness, of fear… and its not yet done with me yet. I shall continue to process, and allow them to blossom and leave. From this experience, I shall learn and grow into someone bigger.
The times ahead may be tougher without someone to guide me – but I still have myself, and the rest of my team. It hurts, and I am allowing myself to grieve.